Girly Girl

I had painted Madeline’s toenails pink on Sunday. Well, this morning she was super sad to put on her socks and shoes for daycare, because she didn’t want to cover up her pretty pink toes. So we compromised, she’s wearing her shoes, and I painted her fingernails pink so she can look at them all day.


Happy Father’s Day

Please excuse me, my eyes seem to be leaking this morning. For all the brokenness that my own father left in my heart, this man right here, has healed so much. To watch him love our daughter, and to know without a doubt that she will never have to question his unconditional love for her, has been more healing than any amount of therapy ever could. Patrick, I adore you and am so lucky, grateful, blessed that you are not only my husband and best friend, but the father of my children. Thank you for being such an amazing daddy everyday to Madeline and for honoring Joshua in so many ways. We love you bunches and bunches!



I am heartbroken that at least 50 families are grieving this morning.

You shouldn’t have to fear for you life when you walk out your door each day and yet we do. Sending our children to school isn’t safe, going to work, the movies, the mall, a concert, a nightclub…

I worry for the world we are raising our daughter in. The violence, the terrorism, there has to be an end to the hurting. ‪#‎hope‬ ‪#‎prayersandlove‬‪ #‎makeabetterfuture‬


In the end love has to be greater than hate. It just has to. For you, for me, for you our children. If we have any hope of surviving in this world without living in a constant state of fear we have to start loving more and hating less. I don’t care if you think it’s hard, or you don’t agree with them on their religion, their lifestyle, their politics, or the color of their hair – just love them anyway. Life is too short to put out that much negative energy. Put love out and see how much returns.

I don’t care your religion, ethnicity, political affiliation, or who you fall in love with. You are my friends. You are my family. I stand with you. I stand beside you. Always.


This awful tragedy in Orlando comes on the heals of the loss of a young singer, Christina  Grimmie who I can remember listening to on The Voice.

Her voice may have been silenced last week, but not her song.

Again, love has to be greater than fear and hate. It just has to. I have to keep believing that.

My faith has been shaken a LOT over the years, but at the end of the day I choose to believe that God is still here. He is still love. He is still working in and through all of this pain and chaos. I may not see it, but I choose to believe He is doing something. I hope you will keep trying to believe too. I know it’s hard, but hold on.

“In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand…

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life’s first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand.”


Cousin Time

Madeline got to spend the day with her cousins today.  She was so excited to have the girls to play with.  Especially her fellow baby doll loving cousin, Edee.


Maddy and Edee taking good care of their babies.



So much fun watching these two play together. Madeline adores her cousins.


I can’t believe how fast these girls are growing up.  I’m so glad I got the chance to spend the day with them.  Maybe next time it won’t be a million degrees outside and we can do something more fun.  We tried to go to the park, but they didn’t last long before they decided they would rather go back to the air conditioned house.  That’s okay.  The little ones played with their baby dolls and colored most of the day and the big girls watched movies and talked. Rose and I baked some cupcakes too.  Love these girls!


Rough Day

Madeline is still sick…

She is currently having a major meltdown that I won’t let her go to the house across the street. Which is insane, considering she has never been to the house across the street. She’s not even talking about the house that has the kids that she talks to.


Now she’s zoned out watching Little Einsteins this morning. Today it is my turn to stay home with Little Bit while she gets over this bug. She is so rarely sick, so it’s so sad to see her not feeling good. I’m hoping one more day at home with lots of cuddles does the trick. My poor girl.


Sick Baby Bear

Baby bear has a fever.  She looks so sad.  I can’t stand seeing her sick.


We took her to the doctor this afternoon and they said she just has a little virus that seems to be going around.  Just lots of rest and lots of fluids and she should be good soon.  They did say that her cough may stick around for up to three weeks.  Ugh.  Miserable.  Poor baby bear.


It’s Not Judgment, It’s a Wake-up Call

Watch your children! Kids move quick. Especially these little tiny ninjas we call toddlers. That’s why you have to keep your eyes on them at all times. You can’t have you face in your phone while they are wandering around. I can’t imagine that it took a quick second for that child to climb into that zoo’s enclosure. He had to have at least had to climb up some kind of fencing or railing to get down to where he was in the gorillas enclosure. That means a parent had to have lost sight of their very young child for more than just a split second. That’s not okay. In the day and age of kidnappers, sex traffickers, and child predators it is never okay to not be watching your child, let alone not watching them in a potentially dangerous environment.

Yes, I’m grateful that the child’s life was saved. Of course. I’m also saddened that a beautiful animal had to lose his when he was only doing what was in his nature (and watching the video – it looks like he was trying to protect the child and just got scared when everyone started screaming).

It’s not just the zoo incident. It’s the fact that as parents we HAVE to be hypervigilent at all times. It takes a nanosecond for someone with ill-intentions to take your child. One child or twelve you have to be aware of where they are, who is around you, and your surroundings at all times. Yes, accidents happen. I’m not naive. Madeline has had her fair share of bumps and bruises. But I would never let her out of my sight in a public place, especially in one as crowed as a zoo. Not for a fraction of a second. Call me a santimom all you want. I call it being aware that not everyone in this world has good intentions, especially when it comes to a pretty little girl.

I’ve read several eye witness accounts. They all have mentioned that the child was talking about wanting to go into the exhibit and into the water. That should have been when she moved him away from that situation. Hindsight is 20/20. Mistakes happen. Accidents happen. It’s a sad situation all around. It’s just personally one that I feel could have been prevented.

Again I will say that I am extremely glad that the little boy is alive (do you really think I would want another parent to have to grieve the loss of their child? – Goodness, if you all would think that you must not know me at all.). I can also be sad that an endangered animal lost his life. That doesn’t make me a terrible person. That just means I have compassion for people AND animals too.

He climbed under a railing, through wires, and over a moat wall. The enclosures are built to keep animals in not necessarily people out. That’s why it’s important to keep an eye on every one.

To me it’s not really about the zoo. It’s about the fact that the world is full of crazy people. Do you know how often we’ve been at the park or somewhere and a young kid has been there all alone, no parent anywhere near? I don’t get it. It just takes a split second for a child to disappear.

We often hear people talk about how we should teach children to take responsibility for their actions, and yet when it comes to a parent who makes a tragic error in judgment people are always so quick to defend with “give them grace.” I’m all for giving people grace (you all should know that, I speak it and give it often), but at some point we have to also say that adults, parents, have to be held responsible and accountable for their actions.

When you have a child, you are responsible for their safety and wellbeing. Not a zoo, not random bystanders, not anyone but you. I’m not sure why this is a crazy notion.

The reason people are so fired up about this story is because thousand upon thousands of children visit the zoo each year and this doesn’t happen. This isn’t losing your kid for a second in a clothing rack at Target, this is allowing your child to climb into an enclosure with a dangerous animal.

I’ve never said crucify her. I’ve never said save the gorilla over the child. I’ve merely said we should all watch our children closely. Just last week I read an article about a woman who was sharing the story of how she thought her two year old had nearly been a victim of a sex trafficking scam. We can’t turn our backs on our kids. Not at the zoo. Not at the grocery store. Not in our front yards. Frankly, it’s sad. Michelle Gregg is lucky. Her son is safe and relatively unharmed (though I’m a little concerned about the psychological trauma of everything he witnessed and having a gorilla shot while standing over him…). Learn from her mistake don’t defend her for it.

Also, when did it become a bad thing to have an opinion? Why are we so afraid to say what we think or feel, because lord forbid we offend someone today. It really is possible for us all to have different feelings and opinions and still get along. We are adults. We don’t have to have to all think the same. You don’t have to agree with me. You also don’t have to comment on my posts on my Facebook page. It’s my right to have my personal opinion and it’s my right to stand by it.

Frankly, saying that parents should keep a close watch on their kids should be common sense not something that people get offended about. Then again, people get offended over car seat safety too, so… I give up. Don’t watch your kids, put your toddlers in backless boosters, and give them all soda and bags of pure sugar for dinner. What do I care. Not my kid. Not my issue. OR maybe I say what I say, because I actually do care about each of you and your little ones. Maybe when I say watch your kids close, it’s because it would absolutely break my heart if I read this story about your child. Sometimes you forget that I’ve buried a son. I would NEVER want any of you to have to face that reality. It’s horrific. It’s an unimaginable nightmare that makes me hyper aware of the dangers of this world. Kids are fast. Madeline is a runner. She is also tiny and could easily fit under and through most of the barriers that are meant to keep her out. That’s why we watch her like a hawk. You don’t blink around this girl, and we know that. I’m not sure why it’s such a negative thing to say I watch my child. I know you all do too. We all should take this mom’s unfortunate mistake as an example of why we need to watch a little closer. That’s all. Peace. I love you all. I’m done.