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“And I’ll know every tear was worth it all”

A couple months ago a friend posted a link to a video of a Shane & Shane song on Facebook.  I listened to it and then I listened to it again…and again.  Each time more and more of it sinking in, touching the broken parts of my heart.

I began to sing along.  “Though You slay me, still I will praise You.  Though You take from me, I will bless Your name.  Though You ruin me, still I will worship.”  

Music has always been important to me.  I grew up attending church every Sunday and it was always in those moments of singing worship and praise that I felt closest to God.  There is just something about pouring your heart out to a beautiful melody.  Over the last 9 (9!) months I have found many songs that have put my tears to words, but this song…  This song was every tear I’ve cried, every ache deep within my soul set to music.

And then you have Pastor John Piper’s words spoken so beautifully:

 “Not only is all your affliction momentary, not only is all your affliction light in comparison to eternity and the glory there. But all of it is totally meaningful. Every millisecond of your pain, from the fallen nature or fallen man, every millisecond of your misery in the path of obedience is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of that.

I don’t care if it was cancer or criticism. I don’t care if it was slander or sickness. It wasn’t meaningless. It’s doing something! It’s not meaningless. Of course you can’t see what it’s doing. Don’t look to what is seen.

When your mom dies, when your kid dies, when you’ve got cancer at 40, when a car careens into the sidewalk and takes her out, don’t say, “That’s meaningless!” It’s not. It’s working for you an eternal weight of glory.

Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But take these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach his word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for.”

On that sleepy Saturday morning, lying in bed watching that video on my iPhone, lying next to my husband with tears in my eyes, those words, that song was written for me.  I’m sure it was written for many others too, but right then in that very moment, they were for me to hear.

I often find myself singing the song quietly to myself, “Though You take from me, I will bless Your name.”  

This year, God has taken so much from me, but He has also given me so much, and for that I will still bless His name.  I have had a lot people who have said that they don’t understand how a loving God can allow so much hurt and pain.  I won’t pretend that I know the answer to that, because truthfully I still struggle with that too.  What I do know is that these struggles, this pain, this deep deep ache, this sorrow, this grief, none of it is meaningless.  God is doing something in me and through me and I will continue to praise Him and try my best to stand aside and let Him do His work.  

It’s not easy.  Anger and bitterness are much easier to feel than gratitude and peace.  But I’m trying.  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyUPz6_TciY

Though You Slay Me

By: Shane & Shane (with John Piper)

I come, God, I come
I return to the Lord
The one who’s broken
The one who’s torn me apart
You strike down to bind me up
You say you do it all in love
That I might know you in your suffering

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

My heart and flesh may fail
The earth below give way
But with my eyes, with my eyes I’ll see the Lord
Lifted high on that day
Behold, the Lamb that was slain
And I’ll know every tear was worth it all

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

Though tonight I’m crying out
Let this cup pass from me now
You’re still more than I need
You’re enough for me
You’re enough for me

[Spoken by John Piper: Not only is all your affliction momentary, not only is all your affliction light in comparison to eternity and the glory there. But all of it is totally meaningful. Every millisecond of your pain, from the fallen nature or fallen man, every millisecond of your misery in the path of obedience is producing a peculiar glory you will get because of that.

I don’t care if it was cancer or criticism. I don’t care if it was slander or sickness. It wasn’t meaningless. It’s doing something! It’s not meaningless. Of course you can’t see what it’s doing. Don’t look to what is seen.

When your mom dies, when your kid dies, when you’ve got cancer at 40, when a car careens into the sidewalk and takes her out, don’t say, “That’s meaningless!” It’s not. It’s working for you an eternal weight of glory.

Therefore, therefore, do not lose heart. But take these truths and day by day focus on them. Preach them to yourself every morning. Get alone with God and preach his word into your mind until your heart sings with confidence that you are new and cared for.]

Though you slay me
Yet I will praise you
Though you take from me
I will bless your name
Though you ruin me
Still I will worship
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need
Sing a song to the one who’s all I need

 
 
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