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Father Issues

My Father died this morning. I’ve tried my best to be sad about this, but I just can’t bring myself to be. To say we weren’t close is an understatement. He left my mother when she was still pregnant with me, and I didn’t find him until I was seventeen. I only found him by running a trace on his social, so it wasn’t exactly like he was begging to be a part of my life. I’ve seen him one time in my whole life, and he has never given me a straight answer to anything. He hasn’t even given me an answer to why he did what he did back then, and now I’ll never know. So, I’ve tried my best to conjure up some sad feelings, but all I feel is anger. I’m so angry that he was never what I wanted him to be, and that I was always disappointed by him. Basically I’m angry that I still feel like I could have written this song.

Unforgiven
by FeFe Dobson
Daddy daddy
Why you break your promises to me
Daddy daddy
Don’t you know you hurt me constantly
And there’s something I think you should know
I’m not the little girl you left waiting at home
All the hurt and pain you left with mom and me
Why can’t I be angry
I hope you’re somewhere out there listening to this song
I hope you’re thinking what you did was wrong
Well let me make it crystal clear for you to see
It’s too late for I’m sorry Sorry is a word you like to say
But sorry won’t erase the things you did yesterday
And I want you to know that I didn’t need you anyway
And this rope that we walk on is swaying
And the ties that bind us will never ever fray
But I want for you to know
You areYou are
UnforgivenUnforgiven
Daddy daddy
Fan of absolute simplicity
Daddy daddy
Expert in responsibility
Where were you when I fell down and skinned my knee
Where were you when I was scared to go to sleep
Where were you to soothe my insecurities
Why can’t I be angry
Where were you the first time someone broke my heart
Where were you when I first learned to drive a car
Where were you when I plugged in my first guitar
It’s too late for I’m sorry
And I want you to know that I didn’t need you anyway
And this rope that we walk on is swaying
And the ties that bind us will never ever fray
But I want for you to know
You areYou are
UnforgivenUnforgiven
Sorry is a word you like to say
But sorry won’t erase the things you did yesterday
And I want you to know that I didn’t need you anyway
And this rope that we walk on is swaying
And the ties that bind us will never ever fray
But I want for you to know
You areYou are
UnforgivenUnforgiven
UnforgivenUnforgiven
Unforgiven…

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